This new guy invited me to his apartment last night and it did not go well. I should’ve walked out the second I walked in. But, nope, I didn’t trust my gut. I really have to stop ignoring that.
His entire downstairs was dark because, he said, he didn’t have a tv downstairs. What? I really should’ve left then, but I went to his room to watch a movie and talk.
I was very clear with him from the get: no sex. None. Not even heavy petting. We aren’t progressing anywhere, but I was curious. What would we talk about? How curious was he about me?
Turns out he’s not the slightest bit interested in me or the rules I set forth. He was too casual about everything. Too uninspired. He didn’t so much as put on a show. It wasn’t long before he was trying to get my pants off. At the second “no”, which he was arguing about, I decided to go. He was being extremely aggressive and heavy handed. I was starting to think something bad was going to happen. So I took off with my dignity bruised and intact. And I’m annoyed today.
I’m annoyed that this dude who is not even in my league tried to help himself to my body. I don’t give a flying monkey’s ass if I gave him 1000 kisses, I get to decide when I give up the booty. I’m annoyed that I have to start navigating this shit again. And I’m annoyed I gave this guy even 5 seconds of my time. And I’m annoyed I felt the need to make “friends” even when I’m really not ready to do so.
This guy is a creep. There’s no doubt about that. He’ll get no more of my time. But another creep will come down the pipe and I’ll be fighting the same sort of battles I fought when I was 25. I’m too old to be fending off aggressive hands like that. And I’m too old to try to give someone an honest shot when they really just don’t do it for me. At least not sober. Heh. What an ass.
Back to being alone for a while. I don’t have the energy for those kinds of fights. I wanted to kmow if this guy was interested in getting to know me as a person and now I know he’s not. Such is my life until I die. Fuck off, cruel world, fuck all the way off.
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