When I was married, I wasn’t even allowed to hang curtains in my room. He didn’t think we needed them so I was not to hang them. When I went into the hospital with my doomed son his mother rearranged my entire house. She didn’t like the way it looked. After my son died I … Read More
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Your Pain is My Salve
#AmWriting “You’re right, sir. I am complicit in my own torment. You were my addiction and I allowed you to crush me and to change me. You most definitely did me a favor when you discarded me so unceremoniously. But I do not care for you, sir. That is not why I entertain you and … Read More
His Fate In My Hands, etc
A funny thing happened yesterday. First, I found out that MyDude was talking about what he did to me at a party. Apparently it was hilarious. The person1 who mentioned this, though, said he “did you so dirty. He’s dirty as fuck.” So it’s obvious to me that person wasn’t impressed by what he heard. … Read More
I’m Trained to Serve?
When MyDude and I were still living together I would do his laundry with mine. It made sense, so why not? At one point he got really pissed at me for doing it. He said “I know you were probably trained to do that but I can do my own laundry.” It seems like a … Read More
Countdown to a New Life
My life is about ti change drastically. Again. This is what I’ve feared the most since TheMan and I split up. I’ll be moving to a bigger town. Lil’lady has already picked out the neighborhood. She’s excited. She’s never lived anywhere else and this is an adventure. I’m not exactly sharing in her joy. I’ve … Read More
Throw-Away Person
Years ago, my ex boyfriend had a pretty decent group of friends. And those friends, because of their respect for him were very protective of me. That has carried over all these years later. We don’t talk much, because I’m not part of that scene anymore. But when we do it’s fun. And they still … Read More
I Was Made This Way
There’s a lot I don’t understand about myself. That’s more evident now than ever. I’m working hard on trying to fix myself, but how do I do that when this is how I’ve always been? This is who I was molded to be. When I was young, my mother hated me. She admitted as much … Read More
We Had a 4th of July Party
My 4th of July this year was phenomenal. I took Lil’lady, my sister and Lil’lady’s friends to my best friend’s house1. She lives on 2 acres just outside of town. It’s a gorgeous property. Anyway, it was a party so there was lots of food and drink. And, of course, Biff invited a dude over … Read More
He Asked About Me
His friend asked about me. This particular friend and I don’t like each other at all. He wanted to know how I’m doing. But he asked Lil Miss and she wasn’t falling for it. Apparently, she told this guy that MyDude did me dirty and I’m doing better without him. He also told her that … Read More
Me of the No-Booty Clan
I’ve lost a lot of weight since all of these life changes began. And with that I’ve lost inches. In fact, when I met MyDude in December 2016 I was in a size 11. I’m now in a size 3. Of course, the primary cause of this crazy shrinkage is stress. But also because I’ve … Read More