So, someone (oh, you know who you are) implied that I am somehow lax in my posting. Hmmm, not been around these parts very long, have you? So, perhaps I should attempt to post something even though I am so not feeling it.
Now, here’s the thing. I actually started this post yesterday. And OMG! It’s still not up. I sometimes have what I like to call “episodes”. Those of you who remember my old blog remember me talking about these and about my mystery illness (still not diagnosed, by the way). My episodes are actually physical symptoms that pretty much incapacitate me. I can’t focus enough to have conversations, write a blog post, read the newspaper, or follow a t.v. program (for example). And don’t even try to feed me new information during an episode, because I won’t remember anything. It’s like my brain has taken a vacation and I wasn’t invited along.* Then there’s the pain- through my entire body – a deep, throbbing kind of pain that just annoys the hell out of me (more than anything). This is accompanied by what I like to call “the droopy eye”. My eye lid just won’t open all the way and my vision in that eye goes completely to hell. Plus, I have a hard time breathing, my chest is heavy, and I experience palpitations. Fear not, though. All blood work is normal (or was the last time I went to the dr.) and I’m pretty sure I got the “it’s all in your head” look the last time I saw my PCP. That bitch. I don’t know what causes my episodes, nor do I know when one will strike. I just know that it sucks monkey balls and they force me to be, basically, a vegetable. (Normally, I try not to get too personal on my blog because I just don’t like to get all that personal. Also, please don’t offer apologies, condolences or amateur diagnoses. Thanks.)
So, why am I telling you all this? I really can’t remember. There was a reason when I started typing, but I keep getting interrupted, so I forgot. Did I mention that my short term memory is way wonky? No? Well, see the footnote, folks, please.
At any rate, I hope this helps you understand some of my posting (or not) issues. I really don’t like coming on here and posting just to post. There’s no point trying to force things when my brain (and sometimes my body) are just mush. And it’s really shitty to read it too. I just know all the author’s and grammar perfectionists (there are some that come here and I’m honestly honored by that) are tearing their hair out right now. I can just hear them “OMG! Transitions! Coherency! Where the fuck are you going with this!? BLARGH!!!” Of course, I like to think I don’t completely suck when I’m halfway normal, so I hate to see myself really suck. Am I making any damned sense at all?
Oh! I’ve remembered! I may have offended one or two people** in the comments of some blog along the way. And by “people” I mean folks that I really admire and respect. And by “offended” I mean made them think “FUCK THAT BITCH”. I’m pretty sure I know where and when it happened and I sincerely apologize. My bad. I sometimes comes across a little abrasive and without my cute little facial expressions you probably wouldn’t get that unless I told you. But being the person(s) you are with the online experience you have you honestly should have wondered instead of begging me to fuck myself. Especially if our relationship is long (comparatively speaking) and you’ve been reading my snarky goodness for a while. However, being the person I am with the online experience I have I should have realized that you really don’t know me like I’d hope you know me and therefore came across just wrong. I’m sorry. I was joking, but it was probably in bad taste. In the future I promise to me more careful and keep my, um, strong personality in check when out and about. But only on certain blogs. If someone I don’t really care much for decides they don’t like my tone then oh-the-fuck-well. Ya know? I’m not trying to please everyone here. Oh! And (before I forget again) don’t worry. If I disagree with you I will do so in a respectful manner. I promise.
One more thing while I’m doing a meta entry. Yes, I am a liberal Pagan. No doubt about it. But I do enjoy having Conservatives, Libertarians, and everything in between (or not at all) coming to chat. Regardless of someone’s political stance and/or religious beliefs or lack thereof they are all welcome here with open arms. So, please do consider all encompassing terms such as “righties”, “lefties”, “wingnuts”, “libtards”, (anything disparaging all of any kind of religion) etc. to be ad hominems while you’re here. There are enough blogs where certain people are judged by the umbrella of [fill in the reason to hate someone]. That’s not happening here. Unless you’re a pedophile, in which case I hate your guts and hope you die a slow, burning death. We can debate. That’s fine. But hit and run comments saying why [fill in the political ideology/religion of your choice] is [fill in the insult of your choice] will get the blah blah cap. It’s in the Comment Policy, but I’ll just say it one more time.
I do believe that’s all for this episode of meta crap. Please join me next time when I ramble on about a lot of pretty much nothing.
* I do consider this a physical condition and there’s valid reasons for that. I’m not going to discuss those, though.
** If you think this is you, then either accept or reject my apology or email via the contact form. Don’t ask if it’s you because I really don’t have to soothe someone else’s ego right now. I either did or did not offend. Only you know the answer- until you tell me.
Meta crap
So, someone (oh, you know who you are) implied that I am somehow lax in my posting. Hmmm, not been around these parts very long, have you? So, perhaps I should attempt to post something even though I am so not feeling it.
Now, here’s the thing. I actually started this post yesterday. And OMG! It’s still not up. I sometimes have what I like to call “episodes”. Those of you who remember my old blog remember me talking about these and about my mystery illness (still not diagnosed, by the way). My episodes are actually physical symptoms that pretty much incapacitate me. I can’t focus enough to have conversations, write a blog post, read the newspaper, or follow a t.v. program (for example). And don’t even try to feed me new information during an episode, because I won’t remember anything. It’s like my brain has taken a vacation and I wasn’t invited along.* Then there’s the pain- through my entire body – a deep, throbbing kind of pain that just annoys the hell out of me (more than anything). This is accompanied by what I like to call “the droopy eye”. My eye lid just won’t open all the way and my vision in that eye goes completely to hell. Plus, I have a hard time breathing, my chest is heavy, and I experience palpitations. Fear not, though. All blood work is normal (or was the last time I went to the dr.) and I’m pretty sure I got the “it’s all in your head” look the last time I saw my PCP. That bitch. I don’t know what causes my episodes, nor do I know when one will strike. I just know that it sucks monkey balls and they force me to be, basically, a vegetable. (Normally, I try not to get too personal on my blog because I just don’t like to get all that personal. Also, please don’t offer apologies, condolences or amateur diagnoses. Thanks.)
So, why am I telling you all this? I really can’t remember. There was a reason when I started typing, but I keep getting interrupted, so I forgot. Did I mention that my short term memory is way wonky? No? Well, see the footnote, folks, please.
At any rate, I hope this helps you understand some of my posting (or not) issues. I really don’t like coming on here and posting just to post. There’s no point trying to force things when my brain (and sometimes my body) are just mush. And it’s really shitty to read it too. I just know all the author’s and grammar perfectionists (there are some that come here and I’m honestly honored by that) are tearing their hair out right now. I can just hear them “OMG! Transitions! Coherency! Where the fuck are you going with this!? BLARGH!!!” Of course, I like to think I don’t completely suck when I’m halfway normal, so I hate to see myself really suck. Am I making any damned sense at all?
Oh! I’ve remembered! I may have offended one or two people** in the comments of some blog along the way. And by “people” I mean folks that I really admire and respect. And by “offended” I mean made them think “FUCK THAT BITCH”. I’m pretty sure I know where and when it happened and I sincerely apologize. My bad. I sometimes comes across a little abrasive and without my cute little facial expressions you probably wouldn’t get that unless I told you. But being the person(s) you are with the online experience you have you honestly should have wondered instead of begging me to fuck myself. Especially if our relationship is long (comparatively speaking) and you’ve been reading my snarky goodness for a while. However, being the person I am with the online experience I have I should have realized that you really don’t know me like I’d hope you know me and therefore came across just wrong. I’m sorry. I was joking, but it was probably in bad taste. In the future I promise to me more careful and keep my, um, strong personality in check when out and about. But only on certain blogs. If someone I don’t really care much for decides they don’t like my tone then oh-the-fuck-well. Ya know? I’m not trying to please everyone here. Oh! And (before I forget again) don’t worry. If I disagree with you I will do so in a respectful manner. I promise.
One more thing while I’m doing a meta entry. Yes, I am a liberal Pagan. No doubt about it. But I do enjoy having Conservatives, Libertarians, and everything in between (or not at all) coming to chat. Regardless of someone’s political stance and/or religious beliefs or lack thereof they are all welcome here with open arms. So, please do consider all encompassing terms such as “righties”, “lefties”, “wingnuts”, “libtards”, (anything disparaging all of any kind of religion) etc. to be ad hominems while you’re here. There are enough blogs where certain people are judged by the umbrella of [fill in the reason to hate someone]. That’s not happening here. Unless you’re a pedophile, in which case I hate your guts and hope you die a slow, burning death. We can debate. That’s fine. But hit and run comments saying why [fill in the political ideology/religion of your choice] is [fill in the insult of your choice] will get the blah blah cap. It’s in the Comment Policy, but I’ll just say it one more time.
I do believe that’s all for this episode of meta crap. Please join me next time when I ramble on about a lot of pretty much nothing.
* I do consider this a physical condition and there’s valid reasons for that. I’m not going to discuss those, though.
** If you think this is you, then either accept or reject my apology or email via the contact form. Don’t ask if it’s you because I really don’t have to soothe someone else’s ego right now. I either did or did not offend. Only you know the answer- until you tell me.
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